Graphophobia - Fear of writing?

I like to write. I like it. I would say I love it, but then I would have to mention the fact that I sometimes hate it. So I say I like it because my love/hate feelings probably average out into like. Also, I avoid the using the term love because it can be misleading. I'm often reluctant to write.  If I truly loved writing, then you would think I would write more. Uuuugh. I wish I could figure out the cause of my reluctance.

Is it a fear of commitment? Am I afraid to commit to one particular style or genre of writing? I go to write poetry but then I'm like "I ain't no poet!" I go to write fiction and I'm like "I ain't no story teller!" I go to write a blog and I'm like "I ain't no geek!" I go to write a research paper and I'm like "I ain't no scholar!" So instead of writing anything, I stare at the wall for five hours instead.

If I absolutely had to pick one though, just one, it would be fiction.

I'm often too ambivalent in my opinions and beliefs and conclusions, so academic/research-based writing is far too dreadful of a process. Fiction, on the other hand, seems to allow more room for ambivalence and ambiguity and probably some other smart-sounding a-words. You just tell a story. It doesn't necessarily have to be told in chronological order, or any specific format. It doesn't even have to have a clear message. As long as you are able to keep the reader interested your words, they'll often find their own messages and values in them.

Not that writing fiction is easy by any means. It just seems to provide lots of room for flexibility and experimentation, something I need to keep me interested in what I'm writing. This is my current rationale for trying to convince myself to take my relationship with fiction to the next level. If anyone objects, please say so now.